And kiss them goodbye,
This life behind bars,
Is not a reason why,
I should open my eyes,
Or take another step,
Closer to life I deny,
Eventually my death.
My arms over my head,
As a cool rain pours,
Over a corpse undead,
That merely wonders,
What is the meaning,
Beyond this unknown,
Cause of my bleeding,
Stranded here alone?
Take all of my tears,
And make them a bath,
To drown all my fears,
And release me at last,
From invisible chains,
I'm too weak to break,
Unless I cut my veins,
For my own good sake.
Pouring out my insides,
To one who can't hear,
Taking large strides,
Becoming who I appear,
To be on the outside,
A lost worthless soul,
With nothing to hide,
Without self-control.
All of my frustration,
Cannot be contained,
Decades of damnation,
All cursed in my name,
In my darkest hours,
I was left by myself,
You call me a coward,
Instead of giving help.
Grasping this weapon,
Not wanting to harm,
Anybody deep within,
But the chances are,
No one will ever know,
What I even cried for,
Since no one was close,
This will all be a favor.
Copyright 2006
-John Gehrig