Incredibly far from here,
Where I have more to bear,
Than a soul filled with fear.
I can't rinse this all away,
I do no more than pretend,
I've said all I need to say,
Hoping you'd comprehend,
Exactly how you treat me,
Identical to everyone else,
Maybe some day you'll see,
How much sorrow I've felt.
I never wanted to succumb,
To a being weaker than I,
I never wanted to go numb,
Or wish to God I could die,
And avoid a chance to fail,
But I still beg, I still pray,
Just like usual, to no avail,
I can't rinse this all away.
Take me to a somewhere,
Far from another letdown,
Far from your cold stare,
To a place safe and sound.
I can't rinse this all away,
And it will remain forever,
My heart, my hands stained,
From every vein I severed,
Of another man, of my own,
While I tried finding myself,
In the blood of the unknown,
If I couldn't get their help.
I can't hurt the others again,
Alone, forever, I must stay,
In the beginning, in the end,
I can't rinse this all away.
Copyright 2006
-John Gehrig